Solitude and Gratitude, Continuing to Process Grief
Solitude and Gratitude I am used to talking to myself these days. When my wife WAS alive, she would often tell me I talked more to myself than I did to her. So I am used to talking to myself. There is a problem with that, however. I need interaction. My own voice just bouncing…
Late Night Early Morning Musings
Stayed up listening to music all nite. Now I have to go to sleep…. Ha…it is 530am…birds are starting to chirp. Why am I up so late? Music, singing, songs making me cry….. is my rhythm off? Am I sabotaging something? I don’t know but I need to figure it out. Can’t stay up all…
Cancer World – Corridor at Smilow
Images and Feelings That Remain You know, something I have been meaning to write about was how I feel sometimes when I am walking through Smilow Cancer Hospital, especially on the fourth floor corridor from the Air Rights parking garage to the Smilow elevators. I have talked about the artwork on this corridor previously, but…
Magic Lives On, Cancer Does Not
The Magic, is Love So, here is the thing about cancer. You know that question on the profile, the one that asks what do you most dislike about cancer? Here is my thought for the day. It came to me while watching the movie Pete’s Dragon. I am a sucker for those kind of movies.…
Frightly Nightly News SNL Style
Frightly Nightly News Rumor has it that someone was tap…tap….tap… tap… dancing….. at the trump tower and reliable sources who were not authorized to speak with the media, and who spoke on condition of anonymity, said that surveillance tapes captured a clip of ex-president Obama tap dancing in the lobby of Trump Towers. However, un…
Humor Helps, No I am Not Crazy, A Drop of Levity by Roseanne Rosannadana
I Needed Humor to Help with the Grief, to Help Heal, Also, Emilee despised Trump Written in the voice of Roseanne Rosannadana (Gilda Radner, part of the original Saturday Night Live cast) “Yes…I think we need bigger cars….and we need to lower emissions on cars…because ….there is NO global swarming….. and we can trust the…
Another Party In Heaven
Talking About Aunt Belle My Aunt….my mom’s sister (mom passed in Jan 2001…she was 78….uterine cancer…died about a year and a half after diagnosis)….passed yesterday, on my mom’s birthday, Mar 15. My aunt was 87, my mom would have been 94. My aunt was in a nursing home until a week ago when she was…
Healing Process, Revisiting Smilow
I visited NP12 (Smilow, cancer hospital, 12th floor) , just to see who was working, and to walk around the floor one time. I saw Emilees’s favorite APRN, and got a hug. We talked for a minute, and then I headed toward the front desk. As I did so, I passed a couple of family…
Just A Sad Day, Sometimes Just Need To Rest
I knew I should have gotten out today, but I just couldn’t get out of my own way. All I really wanted to do today was go back to sleep. I was up early, around 6. I did some stretches, I had my cereal and looked at email, deleting junk mail, reading some news. I…
Come Join Me As I Shop and Cook For The First Time Since Emilee Is Gone
Come Join Me For A Bit Today, I passed a couple of thresholds, hurdled a few hurdles, and crashed through some force fields, some invisible barriers. You know I have not really cooked a home cooked meal since Emilee has died. Oh, I made franks, but that does not count for anything. I have been…