Sharing My Thoughts on Lonely

Sharin’ My Thoughts on Lonely Ok..I still spelled melancholia wrong…..ha…. there is no melon in melancholy….lol….who says….if I want to put a melon in there, so be it!!! So there. Have to make some of your own rules as you go along, and if the doctors can’t have some sense of humor then they shouldn’t…

A Grieving Stuffed Toy Rabbit and Me, Talk and Cry after Emilee is gone

Melon Callin’ Ya, AKA, Melancholia Sometimes it is just …I don’t know…easier? to talk to a toy stuffed animal than it is to a person? I don’t know…sometimes it is easier to tell (shhhhh, I don’t want to offend any of them) a stuffed animal, what you are feeling, or what you need, or what…

From Hair to There

Emilee Lost Her Hair. I Lost my Spouse. Losing her hair was traumatic. When her hair first starting falling out, it was as if she was mourning. There was a psychic or psychological pain that occurred. I think she felt like she was losing a piece of her self, a part of her identity. Her…

Other Details About Emilee’s Pancreatic Cancer

Bits and Pieces as They Come to Me The writing seems to help and I know that when you read this…It helps keep Emilee alive in our hearts…and she is smiling…that’s all I need for the moment. Some stuff I left out when I wrote about Emilee’s journey… the ongoing battle with dehydration… numerous times…

Emilee’s Pancreatic Cancer Journey

My wife of 16 years, Emilee, passed from pancreatic cancer (exocrine adenocarcinoma) on January 31, 2017. She was first diagnosed on May 9, 2015. Here is a summary of her journey. She hadn’t been feeling right for several months, maybe about six months or so. She had been losing weight, which is something she had…

Thank You to Facebook Friends after Emilee’s Funeral

February 5, 2017 This is a post I wrote on facebook: Thank you. Your posts are beautiful. Some of you are making it extremely difficult for me to eat and read these at the same time. I am trying to watch the salt in my diet, and tears in my food…well, you get the picture.…