Neal’s Healing Process
About the Tree
About the Tree… One of the things we have talked about in my meditation class is impermanence, how things change constantly. And attachment. How getting attached is human. The two seem to go hand-in-hand. As long as I learn to accept impermanence, and learn to accept getting unattached, I won’t be an anxious wreck all the…
Read MoreA Whole Bunch of Shit on Shit (Okay, The Scoop on Poop, better?)
As i continue to age, one of the very noticeable changes has been that often times, i have to expend an extreme amount of effort to produce a limited quantity of poop … the expenditure is totally disproportionate (ridiculous contortions, drastic breathing and blood pressure changes enough to produce a stroke) to the results (a…
Read MorePoem – Chemo At The End
This came out of both a conversation, and remembering. Rather than seeing this decision as a giving in, if it can be reframed in such a way that the person is not feeling defeat, but somehow empowered, then the time remaining is seen with a different set of eyes. It is not easy to do.…
Read MoreSunflower Satire
You may or may not recall, some time ago I wrote a piece about the sunflowers. I will summarize. Once upon a time, the sunflowers got together, Marched on Washington, D.C. and marched right into Trump’s office. When they left, tens of thousands of them, Trump lay lifeless on the floor, a silly inane Trump…
Read MorePoem – In The Still of The Night
I needed to let some light in on this poem about darkness. The week of suicides of two prominent people. In the still of the night when my thoughts drown out reason my unconscious commits treason my food too highly seasoned belies what is true and right do you have a treat for…
Read MoreA Friend in Struggle
To a friend in struggle: I never had friends before Em died. I probably never really had friends all my life. I have been a loner a long time. I have developed some friendships since Em died. Through grief support, through music, through writing, through facebook, through blogging, through pancreatic and other cancers. I have…
Read MoreA Few Quotes I Like
Some wonderful quotes out of zillions: Albert Einstein…the difference between stupidity and genius is that genius has its limits. Dalai Lama…if you think you’re too small to make a difference…try sleeping with a mosquito in the room. Abraham Lincoln…when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. J.K. Rowling…Rock Bottom…
Read MoreP.U.T.Z. Party
PUTZ I am starting a new political party. Right now, I am the sole member. It is called P.U.T.Z. or the PUTZ party. It stands for pick up trash zealously. I formed this party this morning after zealously picking up trash around the road just outside of the cemetery. I got tired of seeing it…
Read MoreShovel Full of Dirt
When he was gone I realized I lost my favorite parent. The one I preferred to wipe my ass when I needed it wiped. The one who protected me when I thought someone was going to beat me up on the last day of elementary school. He had been born in Brooklyn. As an adult…
Read MoreMy Hat and The Whistle
I committed the cardinal sin. When I took my seat on the LIRR to go from Penn Station to Babylon, I put my hat on the overhead rack. I already had my backpack on the seat next to me. I figured I would squish it or it would fall on the floor. I put it…
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