Beginning and Learning Again
March to December – Summary Catch-up – Letting Go
A wise therapist/psychologist/wonderful human told me there are three things we must learn. One is to love fully. Two is to allow ourselves to be loved completely. Three is to let go. Of what? Of everything. It has been such a long time since my last post. Much has happened since March. Many major shifts. …
Read MoreAbout Trees – Me, S and Z
Me, S and Z I still love wrapping my arms around S and Z and their extended family They were the first ones who whispered, so softly, I barely heard, “Please, hug me.” I thought I heard, and didn’t mean to be rude or want this one to have ask again or beg, And I…
Read MorePoetry Collection One 2019
MY HEART HAS GROWN Her soul forever with me, I feel her in my heart Physically no longer present, love and spirit never apart She sees and hears and knows, what I think and what I feel, Sometimes I recognize the signs, sometimes not sure they’re real Her soul now lives as part…
Read MoreOn the Eve of Emilee’s Second Death Anniversary Sam & Ick Talk (Talk Seven) – Sometimes – Grief, Hunger, Ache, Soothing
Sam and Ick (Talk Seven) Sometimes Sam: I ache sometimes Ick. I recognize it a little better than I used to but … the ache of grief… of loss recent or not … it is a familiar ache and I know you know what I am talking about. Ick: Yes, Loss is an…
Read MoreStart with Religion and Politics, End with Religion and Politics
Start with Religion and Politics, End with Religion and Politics The entire concept of Christmas, I don’t want to say Christianity, because I don’t want to limit it to Catholicism, but if I go back to the beginning, the concept is that God or Spirit, whatever you choose to name it, came together to…
Read MoreSam and Ick, Holiday Feelings
Most people want to hear happy stuff. And I do laugh every day, it’s on my list of requirements. But I want to attempt to describe an emotion. It’s a little bit of a mix I think I need to talk to Ick about this. Sam (Seasonal Affective Management): Ick, I am feeling…
Read MoreA Conversation on Vulnerability
What is it I stand to lose Gabriel thought? He looked straight at Melinda, his therapist, and asked, “What is the risk of showing all my vulnerability? Is it fear of showing my weakness? My neurotic thinking? My uncertainty in knowing how others will react to seeing inside my thoughts? Fear of exposure? Of being…
Read MoreA Selection of Recent and a Few Not Recent Poems
I realize I want to create another post with humorous poems. I don’t think these are the kind that make you laugh, but hopefully they make you feel something. The Em in December your hair is sun shining your dance floats on a note sailing through space a dream all afloat your smile warms my…
Read MoreSam Talks about Attachments, Letting Go, Being Captain of His Ship
It’s like my friend Ick (Intuitive Counseling Kindness) told me (I am Sam, Seasonal Affective Management): Don’t get too attached to the Sun, (I grieve sometimes when it leaves) Like, don’t get too attached to Anyone, Live and feel, Yes, but attached, No. As he would say, all things come and all things go, So,…
Read MoreSome Things about December, Emilee, Mom, Our Wedding
Haiku for Blue All I can hear is, the rhythm of your voices, breathing me to peace … nmk My Em in December (my multipurpose anniversary and valentines day poem), guaranteed to get you what you need, but not necessarily what you want, for sale now, 30% off until midnight tonight, of course with…
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