My Anniversary – Dear Emilee Letter And Poem

Dear Emilee, You will be happy to know that I got you a balloon, and something else too but I will tell you in private. I am just seeing Maryann’s note and that is bringing on tears. Okay…focus….lol…not exactly my forte all the time, but I have gotten better since you are gone. I had…

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Thoughts About My Anniversary Without Emilee

I know this is long… takes more than 10 seconds to read … it Rambles it roams … Welcome to my thoughts … It is my stream of consciousness as I look to the sky and take in the wondrous image of the splashing wake and the gentle rise and fall of the prominent prow,…

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The Anniversary Card – Emilee Left Me One For This Year

 This is the kind of thoughtful, caring, kind wife that Emilee was. Emilee left me a card for our anniversary for this year for 2017. And, yes, I cheated, I have read it several times, probably more than several, I think I read it for the first time the week after she died, and I…

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Poem – What Color Suffering

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10211266067828086&set=a.10208902106450529.1073741827.1251156678&type=3 The link is for a Snoopy drawing I drew from an illustration with the caption, “you are always on my mind” WHAT COLOR? Once I had an idea, and thought what color is pain what color suffering, a common affliction of each human soul? is it blue for sad is it red for mad…

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Poem – For All The Grieving Souls

For those grieving for lost loved ones anywhere, but right now, especially for Sutherland Springs, Texas, Manhattan, New York, Las Vegas, Nevada, and countless others here, and everywhere…for you and the anguish you are feeling and for all of us who feel the enormity of your loss…our hearts reach out to yours… Grieving Souls Bless…

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Experiencing Loss As A Process That Transforms

It is difficult to sum up grief in several paragraphs or one poem or one long saying or piece of prose. And, some of this I have said before and am reiterating it here. But, if you don’t like long statements you won’t read this anyway so you won’t remember that I said it before…

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Emilee’s Clothes

Emilee’s Clothes. Sounds like the title of a poem or a story. The Emperor’s clothes. It IS a story. It is always a story. For me, and for anyone else that has ever had to perform this task or will have to perform this task in the future. The dreaded “going through the clothes” experience.…

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A Meeting, A Date, Hope, Disappointment, Hope, A Beginning

The beginning of this is an excerpt of a young man’s story, having had multiple surgeries on his jaw for cancer, about a very early interaction with a woman after several years of cancer treatments and surgeries. Afterwards, follows my reply and my story: “Obviously, when you get to know each other better, you start…

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Essay on Las Vegas Massacre

The Las Vegas massacre, I purposely did not watch the news after the tragedy. I listened to some of the news on the radio, on NPR, but I did not want to see the images. Grief triggers my own grieving well, and although not watching the TV news, I knew at some point I would…

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