Poem, “What Is This Lonely”

WHAT IS THIS EMPTY

What is this empty I feel,

Longing for more than touch,

Touch with connection.

Touch with emotion.

Touch with emotional connection.

How do I feed my self,

And learn to fill my self,

Linger in my own fullness

Without the aching emptiness,

The deep pangs of lonely.

And once not so hungry

To then seek to share.

For if I bond with another too soon

Hoping to satiate, to fill, those empty places in my soul,

If I bond before these black holes of yearning

have turned in on themselves and

can no longer suck the light into itself,

If I do not repair these holes

Then I will ache forever, resent forever, my mate and myself

All… over ….again.

NmK

Neal Klein
Life After Emilee, on the loss of my wife to pancreatic cancer. I’m not accepting comments right now but please feel free to get in touch via my Contact page.